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Oh my gosh, I can hardly believe I haven’t posted here but twice this year! Well, my dear ones, 2015 has been an interesting year and with just two and a half months to go! It’s already October!

This year has been a full year of growth, realizations, changes, health challenges, tossing out and simplifying life, and so much more in between. I’m not sure where to begin, but after the death of my Dad last year, life certainly changed for everyone in my family. I’m one of five children and our Mom needed us all more than ever at this time. She’s a strong woman, but each birthday, holiday and conversation was filled with memories and I felt life was moving so fast all around me, I needed some time to “grieve” in my own way. I use the term “grieve” carefully because while I miss my Dad, learning has been elevated to a different level since his passing, in so many ways. Life has changed, I have changed and I feel blessed.

My health has been a pain, literally, for me for a long time. The last few years I’ve slowly lost some of my mobility and gained a lot of pain all over, just about every inch of my body. Being able to get up, get dressed, possibly go to pool therapy or to spend time with family or even shop for groceries, has been a challenge and since my husband also has health issues that keep him busy, life some days can be frustrating and definitely keep me taking deep breaths and asking for help from my Higher Power. I find myself talking to my Dad and my “helpers,” which include angels, faeries, spirit guides, my dogs and more. I don’t have a lot of close friends that live close by or even those I can call when I just need to vent or share. Mostly it’s because I’m an introvert, wanting to write, do my own thing, be alone or rest and heal some days. I’m grateful I’m able to have a life and lifestyle to work from home and not have to drive to a job away from home every day. There are also times when I can stand up in a crowd, speak, teach and help others, being quite the people person. I guess that keeps things interesting, but sometimes it is a challenge to push myself! 2015 has been a year of reflection, learning to keep my cool, listening more than speaking, doing my best to be kind to myself and simplifying my life even more. With so many changes and challenges, I feel my body, mind, soul and spirit have all been unbalanced. I have been working and resting to bring them all back together. I can barely walk, but I keep on doing it through the pain. I wonder some nights, how I make it through the days, but I just do. I have so much pain I barely noticed my stomach and guts were not feeling right, but I figured it was from stress, fatigue, Tylenol or similar pain medicine or food I just couldn’t tolerate anymore. Finally I ended up at the Emergency Room and was told I had Diverticulitis. I was hospitalized, but not before I tried to deal with it at home for a few weeks or more. I couldn’t keep anything in my body, I lost twelve pounds in a few days and ended up not eating anymore. I became very dehydrated and ill. I am happy to say I’m finally feeling better. I have not gained the weight back and I do believe everything happens for a reason. My body seems to be finding more balance and “being empty” for a while has reset my system. I snicker at what I tell people, part of a joke I heard somewhere years ago, about how the brain thinks it controls the body and the heart thinks it controls the body, but in actuality, it is the digestive system or the “ass” that controls everything! LOL. Think about it, if our guts are out of whack, the rest of our body becomes sick and in the “end” (no pun intended) our butthole controls us, lol. Make sense? If things stop at that end, everything can become sick and unbalanced!

Oh yes, I did say simplify and my goodness, has that been interesting. We’ve had some great guys working on our house with what started out as tearing down and replacing our front porch/deck and windows in the front of the house which turned into making the upper deck into an enclosed screened porch, new lower deck with a ramp, new front windows and double french doors leading into the enclosed porch, a new front door, new closet, tearing down a wall and letting more light into our home! I am so happy how much better the energy is flowing! Much better Feng Shui! This started in July and it is still not finished, but with it turning into a much bigger job, we’ve been patient and we highly recommend, “Smith Construction,” for anyone in our area if they need home repairs or additions done in their home. Next, they are updating and repairing our sun room before winter and before adding an addition to our home… so they may be busy for a while, then you can have them! *Smile* We are very happy with their work and how much love they put into everything they do! It truly shows!

We also had a new heating and cooling system installed in our house! We have lived here fifteen years and only used the air conditioning, but used a wood stove to heat each winter. Finally, we have a choice! It will be nice to use central heat but also use the wood stove, which I love so much and appreciate when the electricity goes out. To me, there is nothing quite like the beauty of a fire and the warmth on a cold winters night!

With the title of this blog post being, “Change, Challenges and Simplicity,” I have told you some of the changes, the challenges and the simplicity part is the inner peace through all situations and how much I’ve grown through it all! I feel blessed and I am grateful as I look back on the lessons learned and for what’s to come. I know I can make it through anything that comes my way, because I am never alone, I trust and I draw strength from my Higher Power and the Universe!

~Happy Autumn everyone~

Love, light, peace and joy, Mysti~

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Okay, so I know I missed posting anything for the holidays or in January, but I can remember sitting here and telling myself I just needed to do nothing or as little as possible. For me, when I say that, usually what happens is all sorts of things start popping up to be done, but this time, thank heavens, life slowed down. I really needed that, especially since the few months before, I got hit pretty hard with all sorts of things that kept me busy, and they were not of my choosing! Oh you know, like a tooth acting up, an old crown actually, that decided it was time to come off and need more work than before. Doctors appointments and unexpected things that come up we have to take care of. Once the holidays were over, I decided to take things much slower; my choice.

I feel taking a mini sabbatical has been good. I’ve been able to stay up late, sleep later, go through “stuff” at home and organize. We’ve had people come in and do some small home repairs, which always feels good, and getting rid of old mail, clutter, reviving the energy throughout our home! I still have days when I don’t do much, sitting and just resting, due to Fibromyalgia, Arthritis and other overlapping health issues. Regardless, I always try to do something, even if it’s getting dressed, washing a load of clothes and feeding the dogs! I don’t really like how everything on television and online in January is about losing weight, getting healthier, exercise equipment, blah, blah, blah, so I ignore it usually, but, it does remind me, just as I change the calendar, to make changes I may have gotten sluggish about during Fall and the Holidays. Winter is thickly upon us in Virginia in January and February which has slowed me down even more this year with my left knee, ankle, shoulder and neck giving me so much pain and stiffness. My doctors are not in agreement with what to do about my knees, so I am doing the best I can, meditating and doing what I can to heal, my own way!

Here it is February already and with snow, comes my Birthday. I had a nice Birthday weekend, because my day landed on Friday the 13th! I’m not superstitious, so it’s all good. My husband, son and a friend of his cooked for me and we enjoyed good food, good wine, good conversation and laughed a lot! It was a nice Birthday and I feel very blessed. I usually don’t even leave home anymore to celebrate due to Valentine’s day or icy, snowy weather. I was happy I ventured out on a sub-zero temperature night to be with family and friends. I noticed the stars shining so bright when we walked out to leave and saw several constellations vividly. The thought that went through my mind was, “My blessings are equal to the stars in the sky tonight!”

Thank you for being here with me. I look forward to your comments and meeting you. May this year be filled with even more positive energy, blessings, love and light.

Love, peace and joy, Mysti-Fran~

*The Story of why I sign Mysti-Fran or Fran-Mysti or sometimes Mystiblu:* I’ve been on the internet for a long time. Back then, people were urged to use an “alias” so people wouldn’t know who they were. I chose the name, “Mistyblue,” for the love of my Samoyed dog that looked like a white wolf! As I learned and found my path, I was Spiritually advised to change my name online and in my ventures to “Mystiblu,” which has even more meaning for me, my work and path.

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December 21-28~ Winter Solstice &  The New Year~

I can hardly believe it’s already December, (and this post took me seven days to write) much less Winter Solstice! Christmas is in a few days and although most of the important things are finished, I can feel myself wanting more sleep and time alone to think and just be myself.

I did not write here in August or November, and I beat myself up a little, telling myself I should have made time. Honestly, the last few months, I have had to pick and choose what’s more important; my health, pleasing others, spending time online, or being with my family and getting quality rest! My health has been a constant issue in 2014.

My health has actually kept me from doing so many things during the year that would have been fun, interesting, exciting and educational. I have been working very hard to get healthier; going to physical therapy, water therapy, being diligent and on time to many doctor’s appointments, handling the health things that have popped up and demanded my attention even when I thought I couldn’t do anymore, walk another step, see another doctor; I persevered. We are much stronger than we think we are!

When I hear people saying they hope 2015 will be better than 2014, I think to myself, how can I create a better year than the last? When I have quiet time, I think a lot. I have a gift, or perhaps some would call it a curse. I see visions in my head when I think or remember. In color pictures, vivid, and sometimes like seeing a movie. I also have visions of things to come, I call them glimpses, and hints of things I need to pay attention to. With so much happening around me and inside of me, I have missed some things, but happily, I’m often given another chance!

One thing I could not have had another chance at, was the passing of my Dad this year, in August. I knew in my heart it would be soon, but I did not know how soon or how fast this would happen. I feel very blessed to have had time to make my peace with him years ago and let go of past hurts and issues. He made a point to say, I’m sorry, some of what you’re going through is my fault and I love you. I was able to say I love you easier, as he got older, whether he said it back or not, it did not matter, because I knew he loved me. Sometimes we think “words” will make us feel better, but they are not always necessary when others are not good at sharing them or when feelings are shared instead of spoken. I am so grateful I was with him when he took his last breath on this earth. He was not able to speak; he wouldn’t have needed to because we all felt so much love and I know he felt it too.

What is really important to you? Have you learned to let go of things that don’t matter or things you can do without or that really are not important anymore? Have you forgiven others and forgiven yourself? As I’ve gotten older, I can see things in my life that no one else really cared about but me, and that I really can do things differently and simplify. There is a time to do more because we want to help others and go that extra mile. Then there are times to allow others to do things; maybe things we used to do and we can now pass the torch or delegate to let someone else learn, so we can do less. I have learned so much in 2014, so many lessons, and I made a giant leap of growth and listening to my inner self rather than everyone else. The world needs more compassion, love, understanding, caring, peace, kindness and light. Be the light to someone when they need it, but learn to do what feels good to your soul and what you know is right. Pay attention to your gut/inner feelings and go with them. Don’t be in a hurry, be still and allow information to come to you instead of jumping too fast and making a mistake. The world is in a hurry. Everyone wants to move fast and get things done, but it can be done with peace and wisdom and not in a hurried rush, causing anxiety and stress. Take time to let life flow like a river and find peace and beauty in everything.

Yes, this has been a very full year. I’ve learned more than I ever could have imagined. I’ve dealt with pain in my body and in my heart, but I never gave up; I kept moving forward. I’ve learned even more about being kind and knowing when to be tough, with love, and to allow doors to open and close and not get upset because I didn’t jump when others thought I should. I am closer to my soul than ever before, as in, knowing even more who I am and what I’m here to do. I may not get things done in everyone else’s timing, but that’s ok, I’m still getting things done and that’s what truly matters.

I wish you peace, prosperity and love for the New Year! Be true to your own heart and create lots of wonderful moments in 2015!!

Peace, joy and light, Fran Mystiblu Hafey~

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“Dad’s Last Sunset,” by Fran Mysti Hafey-Copyright2014

By Fran Hafey

I learned some time ago to pay attention to my dreams, especially the ones that stood out or seemed to have a message for me. These are usually dreams I could remember easily or played out more than once. Each one has taught me valuable lessons.

Three months ago I had a powerful dream about snakes. I’ve had snake dreams before and I knew snake medicine can and usually does foretell of big change.

Some dreams are like puzzles, needing to have the pieces or information put together as we remember them or as other signs and pieces come to us, either in more dreams or in messages when we’re awake.

Snake not only came to me in my dreams, but I also received a visit from one in my physical home. I shared this in my June blog entry here called, “Snake Energy.”  (I quote: For now, I know I’m going through some big transformations inside and out. Perhaps I’m shedding my old skin and getting a newer, tougher one.)

Snake told me to expect very big changes in my life, ones that would cause huge ripples of changes in my own life and others around me. I thought it may have meant about my health or my husband’s health, or both. I didn’t know then, just how big the changes would be and that they had already begun. So many things are stirring and happening in our lives, behind the scenes, even before we’re aware of them.  I think my snake visitor was also trying to tell me just how fast things would happen because he came so soon after my dream. How I reacted to the snake being in my house and that I was alone when he came, are also clues to how life would unfold for me in my near future.

Just two months later and being very mindful of life events occurring around me, my family and I became very concerned about my Earthly Father, my Dad. He became weaker, losing a lot of weight and forgetting people in our family; faces and names. He began asking about loved ones that had already passed on and his energy shifted, being in two realities or realms, at the same time. Sometimes he was with us and other times he was with those on the other side. In May, we had a family gathering, in his honor, to basically say good-bye to the man we once knew. My Mom knew he was fading, maybe she already knew he was dying; she just didn’t know he would be leaving us in this reality so soon.

Dad was admitted into the hospital August twentieth with complications from illnesses he’d had for years, plus pneumonia and a severe bladder infection. The doctors ran tests and more tests and found he had cancer throughout his whole body and bones. Within just a few days Dad was brought home, where he wanted to be. We weren’t sure how long he had, but I suppose he decided he had had enough pain in that body of his and he shifted once more to crossover sooner. Hospice told us they felt he had days to hours. This news certainly got our attention fast, and it brought our world’s all a bit closer and into perspective for the sake of our Dad, who was leaving this world soon and bringing into focus how much our Mom needed all of us to help in this process of letting go of the physical, with love.

My Dad is dying. He is in his home, surrounded by those he loves and all who love him. We share good memories, strive to keep him comfortable, as we all say our good-byes. It won’t be long; his journey is almost done here, as we begin our new one.

As I finish writing, I have been called to my childhood home to be with my immediate family. When I arrived, everyone was busy with something, but someone was always with my Dad. He was not moving anymore, struggling to breathe as his body was letting go. We all gathered around him, showing our love for him and each other. We touched, we cried, we smiled and laughed. The love there in our home was  and is, incredible. It was this love that helped my Dad leave this life so peacefully and gently. As he took his last breath, we all were touching him and each other; My Mom never taking her eyes off of him. It was one of the most beautiful experiences I’ve ever had; the most loving moment of my life. We comforted each other, crying but feeling so blessed. We stayed there a long time, together, one in love and now helping our Mother whose husband of sixty six years, sixty seven in less than a month, was now gone from his body, but his spirit never dying, but living within all of us forever.

While we stood holding hands and touching Dad, suddenly the electricity flickered and went out! It was afternoon so we still had light. When the Hospice person arrived, she saw we had no electricity. We told her what happened and she explained how she had seen something like this before and it’s because of his energy and our own, connecting and creating a surge as we all touched Dad and each other to complete the circle of love at his time of passing.

More family members came to say good-bye and comfort my Mom. Some of my family urged my Mom to go to another room as they took my Dad out of the house, for one last time. I stayed for a while, but then something outside caught my eye; the beautiful sunset. My Dad’s last sunset on his family homestead on the hill in Virginia. I started taking pictures; I felt compelled to as I said out loud, “Dad’s last sunset,” and I smiled and felt peace all around me.

I know this was not a good day for my Mom or my family, and my Mom would need our love and help more than ever to get through this. She has strength from God, her family and friends, her church and she talks to Dad a lot and feels comfort in it. In time, I do feel she will realize how beautiful  Dad’s passing was and she will know it was such a blessing, one that many are not given.

A long time ago I worked in a hospital helping babies come into this world. I took their pictures and saw the smiles and love of parents and family. I’ve worked in nursing homes and birthing rooms. I’ve seen birth and I’ve seen death. My Dad’s funeral was my first, and it was beautiful. A true “Celebration of Life.” He is missed, but we all smile and remember his words he uttered to us many times in his gruff voice; rough and tough, but with love, he would say as we would part, “Drive fast kid,” which was his great sense of humor and his way of saying, “I love you.” Now he flies fast with the angels.~

Blessings and love, Fran-Mysti-September 29, 2014

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LoveNote for Sunday May 11, 2014~

I am certain, I love myself more now than I have ever before. I am comfortable with who I am as a person, inside and out. I may not be what someone else feels is right, but I am not them, I am me! I have lived through many experiences and problems, big and small and I am stronger and better for each one. I have learned many lessons and I welcome them. My body is not what it used to be, but why should it be? I am older, I am wiser, I know myself and I value everything about me. Some days are better than others, so I take a deep breath and count my blessings. I strive to help others on their journeys, when they have doubts and need to learn to love themselves.

Believe me. This was not something that came easily or fast, but as I shared in my book, “A Season of Love,” “When we experience trials, we should not look back on them or curse them, but do our best to be grateful and have joy for receiving each lesson which makes us stronger. Like a sword being created, the Master folds the heated metal, over and over again, tempering it, making it strong and worthy. We, like the sword, are put through heated times, only to make us stronger!”

Blessings and love, Fran~Mysti~May 2014

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I’ve been blessed to have good memories of Thanksgiving with my family. We had a storybook setting out in the country, with a large table, a big turkey and all the trimmings and traditions. I learned to cook the Thanksgiving meal when I was about eleven years old by watching and helping my Mom. She’s a good cook and always told me her Mother did this or her Aunt did that, but she had her own ways of doing things. As the family grew, we stopped going to my Mom and Dad’s once they got older and some of my siblings would have them over to eat or we would get together in smaller groups, but we always go to my parents home for Christmas.

All the vegetables we ate that day came from our garden. We grew potatoes, green beans, sweet potatoes, corn and several varieties of squash. We grew much more, but those are the ones I remember eating at Thanksgiving. I remember having a turkey, but I was told sometimes in earlier years they would have a large chicken if money was tight. Most of the bread and desserts were made fresh and life seemed a little simpler then. After our meal, most of us would go outside if the weather was nice, while some had coffee, maybe some television later on, but not as much as people watch today. Mostly, the television was on in the morning to see the “Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade.” We watched the parade while cooking and preparing for the day.

I’ve seen holidays that were tighter than others, but over the years, we’ve cut back to a reasonable meal, proclaiming it’s more important to have an abundance of love, than an abundance of food! It doesn’t really matter if you have pizza, tofu, burritos or turkey sandwiches. Just being together, sharing our prosperity with others all year round, coming together on several days of the year to tell others how blessed we are, is really the best blessing of all.

Traditions are nice and having a big meal is great, but not all people have that for Thanksgiving. I hope and pray no matter what foods we have, what traditions we uphold, that what we have the most of, is love! Although compassion, understanding, forgiveness and peace are good to have too!

When we get ready to sit down and eat, if it’s two, four, six or eight people, I always take a moment to remember others, in whatever situation they may be in, that wish they were home or were warm, full, loved and not alone or in tough places right now. I ask my Creator to bring people together for the highest good and I ask that their hearts be filled with love. I also say “thank you” for everything and remember to share. No matter how much food we have, I’m going to have a moderate meal, but have a HUGE amount of LOVE to go around, and it’s not fattening at all!

I pray and believe, and wish for you the very best Thanksgiving ever, filled with all that you need and most of all, Love.~

Blessings~ Mysti~

 

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Elle1(2)Have you ever had an animal come into your life that touched you so deeply you couldn’t quite figure out why at first? I’ve had a few, and all their memories are strong within me forever. They touched my soul and later, I knew why we were together. Sometimes I didn’t know until they had gone from this world, why they were meant to be in my life, and the reason, but I am better for it. We had something to do and I know one day I will be with them again and for now, they are always with me in spirit.

I don’t want to be a downer, especially with it being the new year, but my husband, Ron and our new year started off a little strange. We’re doing our best to remind each other, its not a “bad beginning” just an end to one life and the beginning of a new one. Its healing for me to write and share this story. 

On New Years day, our little Elle, or “Miss Elle,” one of our precious dogs, began acting a little odd in the afternoon. We checked her over and discussed that we would wait until morning and see how she was doing. If she was not better, we would take her to her own Vet. We truly thought she was constipated from eating rawhide. We rarely gave it to them, but for Christmas, it was a treat.

About eight at night, she took a huge turn for the worst. She went outside and didn’t come back in. I went out to find her and as she walked up our ramp, she looked right at me and stumbled, fell over and began screaming and arching in pain. I thought it was because she could not pass something, so then thought she may have a bowel obstruction. When Ron held her in the bathroom, she arched her back in pain and I said, “she’s dying.” We called our Vets office and they were not there. We called the closest E.R. and told them we were bringing her in.

It seemed like the longest drive in history and each time we hit a bump or had to go over speed bumps, she would cry out in pain. I held her close in one of my favorite blankets. When she had two really bad episodes, arching and screaming, I told her to give it to me and I begged SpiritGod and the angels to help her. It was horrible, but I had to be strong for her. After the last “seizure,” as we came to find out later that’s what they were, she found a place close to me and the door, and finally seemed to rest. I checked often to see if she was still with us. She didn’t make another sound until the E.R. tech came to the van to take her from my arms. When we walked to the front desk, I noticed she was bleeding from her mouth and I could see blood in her eyes. What I thought it had been, an obstruction, changed to the same issue she had in the summer, a autoimmune problem with her blood not clotting. They took her in the blanket straight back. We never even had to sit down before they took us into a room. A nurse or Physician’s assistant, came in and got more information, as I was filling out a form. It wasn’t long before the doctor came in and said Elle was critical and was bleeding into her brain and actually her whole body was bruised and bleeding inside. She said they would get us an estimate on what they needed to do and let us know. 
 

When the physician’s assistant came back in, she had a form showing what everything would cost. We looked at the bottom line and about fainted. Yes, we love her and yes we wanted her to get better, but something in me, perhaps my Mother instinct, became stronger and I asked, “What are you telling us, that you will not do ANYTHING until we pay this?” They told us over the phone it was a $95.00 just to bring her in and it had to be paid that night. We could have paid some of the bill that night, but it was just after the holidays and it hit us hard. I came right out and said, “The doctor has not even told us her prognosis! I need to know her prognosis before I can say what we will do next! I was not yelling or angry, but I was to the point. This was my “Princess Elle” and “I” was not ready for her to go yet… until she looked us in the eyes and said, “She will not make it through the night.” 
 

We kept hearing another dog crying and it brought to our attention that she was in pain. They said she was not moving or crying, but when they moved her, she was very uncomfortable and would cry out. I looked at Ron and he looked at me and with tears in our eyes, we said at the same time, “we need to let her go.” We told the assistant, that we didn’t want to put her through anymore pain and suffering, that it wasn’t the money, it was about Elle. She said she understood and she was sorry, as we both began to sob, not holding back. I apologized, but I knew this woman had been through this before. Somehow that helped. We said we didn’t think we could handle watching them inject her and end her pain. She said she would give her something to help with pain and bring her to us to say good-bye. She also asked if we wanted her to make a clay pawprint of Elle’s paw for us that had to be baked at home to set it. We said yes, of course.

Once she brought her in, we decided we should be with her to the end. We spent some time with her, saying good-bye, telling her how much we love her and how special she was and had been in our lives. She was so tired, not responding to anything we said or did, just wanting to rest. We knew it wasn’t just the drugs, but that she was done with all this. We could still feel her love. Then we said there was no need to prolong her pain. We were grateful she had the iv catheter in already and so the injections were easy and quick. Within two minutes, she was gone. She had been so ready to leave her sick body behind and cross over the Rainbow Bridge, where some believe animals go to be reunited with us one day in spirit. We cried, but we also knew she was free of pain and was now being introduced to all our other dogs, cats and birds that had passed over the years. I even saw her running happily, giving them a run for their money. Whole and free. That made me smile.
 I asked if we could take her body home to bury with our others and the assistant said, “of course,” that she would wrap her for us and put her in a box. I told her no box, to just wrap her in the blanket she came in because it was one of her favorites.

The last couple of days, we’ve cried more than we’ve ever cried over losing one of our loving pets. Maybe it’s because of her energy, her sweetness, but fiery temper, the way she seemed so regal and “princess like.” She radiated love and light and made me feel happy every time I saw her. I found her on a pet list, someone was trying to find a home for her because they didn’t want her anymore, they felt she barked too much and she wasn’t what they wanted. I was thrilled to find her and could hardly wait to have her here with us in our home! She didn’t disappoint us, not ever. She only brought us smiles, laughter, love and joy. We really miss her but we know we did the right thing.
 

One day the pain of losing her will be gone, at least not how it is now, even though we know we lost her in body, but never in spirit or in our hearts. We have five more dogs at home and a number of birds. We still do occasional rescue work, our most recent finding a good home for a stray kitty. We know there will never be another Elle, no not ever, but we do know we’ve been blessed and we’re grateful to have had a few years with her.

Rest in peace dear Elle. Thank you.~
 

~Gone yet not forgotten although we are apart. Your spirit lives within me, forever in my heart.~ Author Unknown

Please read about Thrombocytopenia, a blood disorder in dogs that is life threatening. Pass this information on to anyone who has dogs or that may have symptoms. Thank you. 

See Elle’s story about when she first got sick and was in the hospital in summer 2012 at http://www.mystickblue.com/DonationsforElle.html
Also read my story and tribute to Meeko, Little White Fox, called, “Today I Missed a Friend.”

This story and page is Copyright Fran Hafey Mystickblue All Rights Reserved ©2013.

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